November 27, 2005


When a friend emailed me late Friday and told me my websites were down, I panicked. I clicked from one to another, and sure enough, every single website I'd done (including my clients' sites) were down because of a hosting issue.

Great! I thought. What in the world is going on, and what am I going to do about this?

My initial reaction to conflict is panic. My heart races, my breathing speeds to a near-hyperventilation state. I start to feel helpless. It's one of those times when those negative inner voices started jumping out and yelling, "Boo!"

After checking each website, I swallowed hard and took a deep, cleansing breath. It's just a website, I told myself. It can be fixed.

Sure, this is more than a small matter. I have clients to take care of, even though what is going on with the hosting isn't my fault. But getting angry and frustrated will only add to the problem, not help it.

To be honest with you, I'm amazing myself right now. The calmness I feel inside is something new, different. And I like it. I am learning that if I turn to God and ask for direction, He never fails to lead me down the right path.

"though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand."
- Psalm 37:24